Weight of choices

This The Weight of Choices

I tried again, fell for someone new,  

Though deep inside, I always knew,  

A heart half-held, a love confined,  

Am I a choice, or just designed?

Is it better to find a good soul,  

To love who they are, to feel that whole?  

Or stay alone, in silence dwell,  

With dreams of love, a distant bell?

What’s worse, the ache of being second best,  

Or the fear of never finding rest?  

To love with depth, to feel the sting,  

Or live without, and never sing?

Is ignorance bliss, a joyful guise,  

Or knowing heartbreak, with tearful eyes?  

To feel the weight of love’s sweet pain,  

Or wander lost, in love’s refrain?

In choices made, we seek the light,  

For in the struggle, we find our might.  

So here's to love, in all its forms,  

Embrace the storms, and weather norms.

I cnt get to reason myself

U r gone

Z pain is real

Eyes swollen n red

Wen wil it stop

Left speechless

Nothing gud 

Dnt want kno anyth bad either

Cnt b worst

Iv reach a point of no retrn

Living wv loneliness

....

I stop them

But stil they no more listen to me

These little pearls wasted

So precious

O mind cant u reason them to hold

O heart cant u pacify them to listen

To whom do they obey

N one more 

Two more

N can no more count

Where they flowin

Who they followin

O love please do make them 

Find ur way

Hw it is
Hw is evryth
Wats hapenin
Does i cme in z thots
Am i stil in z heart
Wat hapned to us
Is it stil so?
Hw wil i cnvince mslf
Hw b in peace
Hw b fine

Wen u r hurt again...
Wounds r deeper

I said no
But u said bliv
I asked y
U said us
I asked til wen
U said 4ever
I asked y again
U replied u
I asked wen
U ddnt reply
I asked wait
U ddnt reply
I asked walk tgza
U said no more

Thank u

Empty, left and no happiness;
You don't want to cry, what's the point? You feel like your heart is falling apart, but your life is going to fall apart too. You don't think it will ever end, like it feels impossible to stop loving them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why.
After a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief,but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You've spent so many nights laying awake in bed, and fear of rejection. After about a million tears have been cried, finally pull yourself back together and keep going. You look back on all of the hurt you had from this,and you realize it's horrible. You're still hurt but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. You just sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this.