Sunday, March 24, 2013

Hw it is
Hw is evryth
Wats hapenin
Does i cme in z thots
Am i stil in z heart
Wat hapned to us
Is it stil so?
Hw wil i cnvince mslf
Hw b in peace
Hw b fine
Wen u r hurt again...
Wounds r deeper

Thursday, March 21, 2013

I said no
But u said bliv
I asked y
U said us
I asked til wen
U said 4ever
I asked y again
U replied u
I asked wen
U ddnt reply
I asked wait
U ddnt reply
I asked walk tgza
U said no more

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Thank u

Empty, left and no happiness;
You don't want to cry, what's the point? You feel like your heart is falling apart, but your life is going to fall apart too. You don't think it will ever end, like it feels impossible to stop loving them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why.
After a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief,but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You've spent so many nights laying awake in bed, and fear of rejection. After about a million tears have been cried, finally pull yourself back together and keep going. You look back on all of the hurt you had from this,and you realize it's horrible. You're still hurt but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. You just sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

To luv is human
To drim is human
To care is human
To cherish is human
To build is human
To trust is human
To hold is human
To bliv is human
To frget isnt
To undo isnt
To let go isnt
To acpt isnt
To hate isnt
To curse isnt

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Days r spent with a hope to hear frm u
Time flies and im stil waiting fr ur glimps
Sun goes down n my eyes stil yearn fr ur sight
Nite out of the window n im stil here waitin fr u
Sleep tuk a troll seeing u in my eyes
Moon smiles at me while reachin dawn,my wait stil nt over
Mrng again laugh at me finding me stil there

Helpless

Wat is zis feeling
Hw il live with it
U say u luv m
But nt tell u
U say u care
Bt i shudnt
U say u r rite wen im not
My luv is wrong?
My caring is wrong?
My waiting is useless?

How wil i live with this
Knowing u dnt care as u did
U dnt want b wv m
U dnt want m
U dnt miss m
U dnt mit m
U dnt dream of us
U dnt plan fr us
N stil u say u luv m

Only anger is present in u
Only distance between us
Only rejection frm u

Hw i long to see that smile
Hw i want see u happy
But im no more ur reason smile
Nth frm m makes u happy anymre

How wil i live with this deception
Z pain of losing u
Z pain of more knowin who u r
Iv lost my past koz it wasnt u
Iv lost my present koz im waitin
Iv lost my future koz u no more desire


Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Luv it wen read this 1

Love sucks when its only you
The one who gives until they are blue

You give your heart until it bleeds
They dont care at all about your needs

Love is powerful, love is strong
But if its only you, you feel so wrong

You think about them every minute of the day
They dont give a crap, they just want to play

My emotions are strong and true
It hurts like hell when its only you

I did the best I could to win her heart
She unleashed the pain and now it starts

It feels like a sword in my chest
This burning feeling is not the best

How am I supposed to handle all of this sorrow?
For me, will there even be a tomorrow?

What should I do? I want do die
I dont think I can look her in the eye

I think about her every minute of the day
This love I have will not go away.
Neither will the pain, I am sad to say

What is wrong with me? I'm a human being
Am I so ugly that I should never be seen?

What else can I do? I gave it my all
She loves someone else, so here is my fall

I was living on cloud nine and now Im back to earth
I wish I could go back to the time of my birth

I would tell myself, stay away from love
Love seems like its not from above

When you finally realize you are not loved
From down below is where it comes.

This burning torment inside my heart
Will never go away, it will never part

So here I am with a sword in my soul
Burning me like a flaming piece of coal

They say love is blind, they weren't lying
I fell for her, now I think about dying.

Nobody needs to pity me
I hope no one ever has to see

The pain and sorrow that is my hell
Through this poem I did tell

She broke my heart today after 2 years
So now I am typing through a bunch of tears

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Indpendence

My independence day starts tday
Free frm evryth
Freedom frm all thots
Struggle still on

Saturday, March 9, 2013

God punishes evry1 who mke sm1 cries
Evry1 who breaks sm1 else heart
Evry1 who break promises
Evry1 who played wv feelings
Evry1 who thot life is a joke
Evry1 who deliberately makes a heart grieves
Evry1 who leav sm1 hanging w/o knowin wats hapenin
Evry1 who destroy sm1 life
Evry1 who use sm1 else
But i dnt want god punish u
I dnt want god wrath on u for erring so much
My hands r already so full wv sorrows
Seein u in a bad state wont ease anyhh but just b more painful
So god pls aleviate z love 1 frm it
Fill my hands more wv his part of pain
Giv him my share of hapines

Thursday, March 7, 2013

I use to fnk ppl r crazy to suicide
Hw cn sm1 nt want live
Wat pushed thm
Now iv learn y
Now i kno y
Now i feel y
Wen literally u cnt wait for nxt secnd cme
Wen time is so painful
Wen no single cell in u is empty to tke mre
Wen zers no part of u left to ache
Wen u no more kno if eyes r made see or to black out each minute
Wen ears no more hear anyth outside just z cntinous buzz in ur head
Wen ur mind stop reactin to evryth n thots r only abt askin reasons
Wen u forget breathe n suffocating z next second
Wen u no more know ur heart beating n kno its dead long time back

Ceiling is ur best frn

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Y ppl bliv in promises they knew will b broken?
Y ppl bliv in evrythg they knew they shudnt ave frm the start?
Y ppl so stupid to bliv itslf?
Y ppl try wen they kno they wil never reach?
Y ppl r blind?
Y ppl say finkin wv heart is being true to urslf?
It never is.. Only mind knows wats rite..
Then..
This most unbearable distance

Dead

Mornings wer w/o dreams
Nites sleepless
No path seemed to be rite
No desire fluttered in my heart
Shadows were trailing evrywer
Tears here n there
Fear everywer
Nbdy died
But still evrythg was dead

Thn came
Z warmth to disapear tears
Z presence zat blot out fears
Z dreams made mornings bright
Z reasons to smile
Z hopes to thread paths
Z yearn to move on

But
All wer pretentious
All wer illusion
All wer phantasy
All wer painful
All wer blank
Left with grieves
Shattered to count z tears

Then...
I died again

Thursday, February 28, 2013

I want to write about how you make me feel
How every time I see your face I know that you’re real
I can’t describe the feeling you always raise in me
I can’t describe this wash of happiness that you seem to bring
But I want to write about it, I want to write about you

I want to write about that day we shared
How every time you would laugh it would linger in the air
I can’t describe the loving look in your eyes
I can’t describe the reason why you won’t say, “Goodbye”.
But I want to write about it, I want to write about you

I want to write about all our memories, all our stories, and adventures
How we conquered them together
But I can’t describe the paths we took
I can’t describe the sense of security I felt in that one look
But I want to; I want to write about you

I want to write about us
How everything felt was true love not lust
But I can’t describe anything without you
I can’t describe all our hopes and dreams
How everything that was so perfect left in a fleet of screams

I want to write
But I can’t explain how our plans got so disarrayed
How god just had to take you away
I can’t describe this sudden feeling I have to be by your side
How even through death I have to hide all that I feel inside

I want to write, but I forget how to describe what is meant
I want to write about you but I can’t
I can’t describe the feeling of lost, the feeling of what it all cost
Or of the silent screams, the lovely dreams with just you and me
But I want to-



Source: I Want To, Hurting Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/i-want-to#ixzz2MDzonXLn
www.FamilyFriendPoems.com
All the fights and tussles’,
All the disrespect, and abuse,
My love was always true.

When you made me cry, made me feel unloved,
I was always there by your side.
No matter what you did or what you said,
I was proud to be your girl.

My love for you is greater than anything in this world,
You know that no one can love you like I do.
Everything we have been through,
I was faithful to you, and only you.

I was your girl
But all you ever did was just nothing
You said, “Love you”
But true love doesn’t break my heart.

I tried and tried to look past it,
But the more I tried, the more I saw someone else

To love you more than anything,
Would be ignorant on my part.
I can’t image my life without you,
But I can’t image my life with you.

I deserve more than what you give me,
Better than what I have now.
My love for you is always there….
Sometimes I wonder how you do it.
How can you sit back and watch yourself hurt someone so bad and not feel any guilt.
You say things to me, about me
And you still look at me ..........
Why do I feel haunted
by someone else’s mistake?
It happened long before I knew them,
but it plays on my mind
and it makes no sense to me.
I have made enough mistakes of my own.
So why should I be haunted
by one someone else made.
From time to time, I feel a prisoner
from a mistake I never made.
It plays on my mind
for nights and days at a time.
Then it vanishes for months,
but never entirely goes away.
I will see something similar to what happened,
only to have it come back to haunt me
with this mistake someone else made.
Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?

Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Time

I cnt liv w/o u
I cnt breathe w/o u
Y evry ppl in luv say this
So fckin true
U dnt feel like breathin
U dnt feel like living
Evryth in u died zat moment
Evryth in u no more alive
So hw u live
N hw u breathe
U hear ur heart poundin
But its no more a livin one
Its just beggin zat pain go away
So tight so sufocating